Fuck this love

Becuz things repeat itself again , i hope that i am strong enough to go through everything myself over again , it's gonna hurt alot i guess . I am afraid that If we meet all the time , you will get sick and tired of me . If we text and talk everyday , we will run out of words , which happened . If we do the same thing everytime we meet , you will get bored . If i don't give you freedom , you feel stress . If i give you freedom , we will drift . If you meet someone else better , you will stop loving me and eventually leave me . I am just afraid to lose you , losing everything we once had . I never thought of knowing you but it just happened . I never thought of liking you but eventually , i did . I never really thought of missing you but I always do. I never really thought of loving you so much but i guess i'm beginning to. I hate how it takes you hours to reply my text when i reply your text once i recieved it . But sorry , i'm not blamming you . Everynight before i go to sleep , i will imagine you by my side . It's not real , but i will still feel happy becuz it's you . I forced myself to let go , forget how close we use to be , forget how you call my name , forget how you tease me , forget how you made my dreams come true , forget those games we played together , forget how you held my hand and put your arm across my waist , forget how we walked together , forget all those happy memories , forget those songs that you sang to me , forget everything that you did for me , but i just can't . I need you but do you really really need me ? I check my phone every few minutes for your reply , but i know that you will never reply , maybe just for today , or the rest of the days . I'm fighting the urge of texting you , do you know how much it hurts . I love you , and please don't doubt that . I never regretted anything , never regretted knowing you and will never regret loving you . I was once your everything , do you remember ? It may not be anymore , for you , but for me it will always be . Forever is a lie , but you once prove to me that it can still last . What about now . You're always busy . I'm afraid of those lonely nights , afraid of everything , where are you . What are promises , who am i to you , i wonder how you feel , will you feel hurt if i don't reply you , will you miss me if i'm gone , like really gone . I feel lke giving up on everthing now . Why can't we be like the past . I know whatever we do can never bring back the feel we use to have in the past , but is this just gonna end like this ? I've got so many things to say to you my dear ...

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